Personal Essay

                                 CHANGE

       

            I was the young girl before who always ask what was my purpose here in the world. Am I suppose to wake up and play everyday and wait 'till the night will appear and that's the time I wil go home, I was 5 years old when I'm doing that routine, to wake up and play and go home when the sun will go down. I am the only child in that time. And then as the time goes by, I turned 7 and I am suppose to go in school, that is the time that everything was change , I thought that school was more fun than waking up everyday just to play and wait until I go to bed. But I was wrong, because in school you need to learn and study , why am I supposed to do the A,B,C and memorize it, why I need to answer the number 1+1, and why you need to answer every questions of your teacher, all those question sucks my head. I was in 5th grade when I experience to fight with my best friend , honestly I was not a good person in my past days. I was one of the most mischievous students in the school. And the unexpected time occur, that my little sister was born, I was happy that I am not alone, but as the years pass. All attention was not on me anymore, and it all stick to my sister. It is hard for me to adjust, because all their time for me was all gone, all was change again. I've been a child who dis-obey my parents and ignore the school's homework, actually my grades started to fall. But they still love and care for me even I am naughty , they also teach me how to be a good child. I'm in a poor family, but I am happy living with my small family, not because my name is JOY , maybe as the years pass I used to be happy, but you really can't avoid the problem. I love to walk alone, because I'm used to it, I'm not used to have a friends. I always take a kilometer of walk with my father when going to school, there are times that I am wishing that someday I will also have a car like my other classmate , so my father will not be tired carrying me on his back. But my father always told me that someday GOD will bless, we will be happy ,we will be rich and we will ride a car like them. That's why I never lose hope.
           As the years pass by, the day appeared that I will step the High school life. I am comfortable with it, but the thing that's  change was, I'm still alone , I'm not happy all the time, there are so many problem that stick into my mind. My family used to go in church every Sunday, I'm just following them , although I'm not listening but, one time I listened to the preacher once. and that's the time that I started to ask myself, what was my purpose here in this world, in that time I take myself to always listened the preacher. There it's started that I open my eyes in the truth, that there is a GOD that loves me , cares for me and saved me. In that day , I didn't expect that I will change, I started to have a friends, real friends, and I'm used to be happy again. I'm not alone anymore, although there are times that I am alone but now I know that I am not alone anymore, because GOD is there with me all the time. I can do the things I didn't do before, and I gain a JOY that showers me all the time.
            And now , I am here, living with the presence of GOD, I cannot count all blessings I experience. I fulfilled my dreams but not all, because I still have a goal in life that I need to finish. There, I realize that all my experience in the past teach me how to be a good person in this world today. And now , My purpose in this world is to share my life to the people how I change and how GOD change my life. I am a girl who is known to be JOY, because God gave me that joy in life.